New car!

And I even recalled how to parallel park a boat! I lived in Chicago driving an ‘84 Olds Cutlass Supreme when I lived in Wrigleyville-ish near LSD. I was a professional.

Ok, you know, it’s a rental and I got very lucky. I reserved a Full-Size car with Enterprise on Priceline. Went for pick up and they had none on the lot. They tried to give me a Ford Edge, I said No, No, No. (Amy Winehouse) I own a large SUV, can’t afford to rent one, but I did get an awesome deal for a full-size car. I won’t drive a small car. All my previous rentals I’ve luckily gotten upgraded, the last one was a Dodge Charger, before that a Dodge Caravan, before that a Dodge Challenger. So I got upgraded to Premium, same deal I got for a Full-size with Priceline online. 

And the guy said ‘Mam, what about a Cadillac STS?” 

Yes, he said ‘Mam’, but I let it slide because I got to drive away in a 2018 Cadillac STS! 

I was so excited! A Luxury automobile! Rich, probably not Corinthian leather, but leather (yes I have leather in my Honda Pilot, but this is new leather, with new leather smell!)

I feel like I’m cheating on my Honda Pilot! It will be a short affair, though it's really so nice having a driver’s seat that functions properly. I reserved for 2 days because we have a lot of medical appointments all over. My baby is going in the shop Tuesday morning. Same repair we had done to driver’s side front needs to be done to passenger front. I think it has to do with the axel, the ball joint that attaches the wheel. I’m sure it will be the usual $300. Because no matter what the problem is, that’s the bill. Hoping it’s done before I have to drop off...her. I really don’t want to pay for a 3rd days rental. 

So, let’s get to it. Heated and COOLED front and rear seats. (Love, especially since the dash was reading 100 degrees for the outside temperature.) 

Front and rear cameras, with audible alert when you come within a foot of a parked car.  The alert went off when I was parallel parking, I had my son get out and check, and I had plenty of room. 

Push button start. Touch screen everything. If ever a crime were committed with her there would be plenty of fingerprint evidence. 

When you turn the car off, an alert pops up to remind you to check the back seat.

I checked, no baby back there...I was all good. 

The ride. Meh. Not impressed. It did not feel like a luxury car ride. It felt like an SUV ride on the Interstate. Even my spouse commented about it. She said, ‘wtf, why does this feel like your Honda Pilot?’

I don’t know. Maybe it was the tires. I have bought all my tires for the Honda Pilot at Discount Tire. I am brand loyal, I only buy Kumho. I always get a lot more mileage than they are rated for, and they’re reasonably priced. The particular model I buy are SUV tires. Every time I’m in for new tires they try to upsell me to the tires for a luxury car ride. It’s an SUV, I bought it because it’s an SUV, why would I want to try to make it feel like it drives like a luxury car? I don’t get it. Perhaps they put inappropriate tires on the Cadillac to talk you into a set of luxury ride tires? Or maybe it’s just a thing for this year and model Cadillac?

And now for something completely different...

(Bonus points if you know where that line comes from.)

If I were to say Patti Smith, Madonna, Amy Winehouse, what would you say they have in common besides being singers?

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Armpit hair.

First I have to say my son and I must be telepathic. My daughter had bought several sleeveless Bohemian looking tops. I saw them, and said ‘how about these?’ She lit up. I didn’t think she’d go for it, but bought 2. She wore one when we were having lunch days later. First my son says, ‘hey you should probably shave more’. Her response was, ‘no, they don’t show much and I think they are fine’. My son and I lock eyes, I kid you not, we both started singing ‘they wanna make me go to rehab, I said no, no, no.’ Then he says you have Amy Winehouse pits. Then we looked at each other and sang it again. Then we sang it again and changed rehab to shave my pits. We laughed our butts off! We told my spouse, she didn’t get it. You might not either, but it was hilarious! And yes, I did follow up with a quick talk about, it’s your body, it’s your choice, many women choose not to shave there, or only trim. You decide for yourself. Your brother and I just locked eyes and started singing Amy Winehouse, we’re goofs like that.

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Don’t ask a question unless you are prepared for the answer

Or, you’ve got a good follow-up to the answer.

My daughter has been having a rough time at her day program and her group home. Things at her job seem to be going well. 

So except for the job, everything sucks. She wants to quit her day program because the groups are all repetitive. She wants to move out of the group home because 1 housemate seems to always be an attention seeker, and the chores aren’t fair. I talked to the house supervisor and got the information on what’s been going on. It seems she’s been having some meltdowns, bursting into tears for the littlest things.

I decided since she had 3 days off during the week she should have a home visit and we’d go over things. We had lunch and I went over a few items on my outline of things to discuss. A major one is equal or it’s not  fair. I explained to her how things aren’t always equal, but things even out, even if now seems really unfair. (Where do I get these lines from? Oh, right! My Mom!)

Later, I made up a set of questions that in a backwards kind of way get her to think about how her problems can be resolved or worked through. 

It was 10 questions that started with, list your coping skills, then for each, list how you can use them. List the things in grade school that you learned by repetition. The last 3 questions were about goals. What do you want to accomplish in the next 3 months, 6 months, year? See how I made her think about things she learned through repetition? 😏

She answered all the questions and came up with some really good arguments against the issues she’s having. In other words, she came up with her own solutions and I didn’t need to say ‘you have to go to day program.’

The 3 month and 6 month goals were very much expected. The 1 year goal through me for a loop. My spouse’s jaw dropped when she read it. My daughter wants to be living independently with her significant other (her words) and having her first child. She is 25, in a year will be 26. I was 32 when I had her. My Mom was 33 when she had me. Sooo, that’s what I’m going with.

Update:So we had lunch again Thursday. We went over everything again. We talked about her 1 year plan and I told her how old I was when I had her, and how old my Mom was when she had me. Using the comparison and saying how both my Mom and I were more mature and better able to be a Mom. I also asked her to remember the last time she was around a baby and how she saw how much is involved. That really made an impression.

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Things I try not to think about and try to enjoy others’ milestones

The things I don’t like to think about are related to my Special Needs Adult Children. That’s what I tell people who are not close to me. That I have Spexial Needs Adult Children. Both my children have the same mental illness. I think there is even more stigma and negativity attached to mental illness with the school shootings and shootings in general. I don’t need to put myself through the questioning looks, and I don’t think I could handle a conversation about it with people who are not close to me. I thank God that my childrens’ illnesses have not taken a violent turn. I’ve not had to be concerned with physical abuse. 

The things that I don’t like to think about have to do with all the milestones young adults go through starting in high school, dating, learning to drive, first job, touring colleges, selecting colleges. Graduating college. Getting engaged. Getting married. Having children. Their illnesses don’t prevent these life events, it doesn’t mean they will never happen. It just means that the road to them is much longer.

Every time someone I know reaches one of these milestones with their children I can’t help but feel a bit jealous. It’s short-lived, I don’t dwell on it, but it’s still there.

I just try as best I can to be there for my children and hope they are happy. The milestones will come in time...some of them. I just pray I get to see them.

Sometimes I think I should write a book about what it’s like...being a parent of mentally ill children, young adult children. I don’t know how to write a book. I don’t know if anyone would read it, but I do think it could be a very cathartic process. I write a lot of blog posts lately, I publish just a few. They’re too personal or gut wrenching, but I feel a little better after writing them. That’s probably more important...the feeling better part.

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When shopping goes dance-pop

My spouse and I were shopping the Kmart store closing sale December 2016. The store was pretty picked over. We were in electronics and the Spice Girls “Wannabe” came on. Shelves were bare, I was bored, I started singing along...yes...out loud. My spouse was too. I started cart dancing. (Well what else would you call it? People chair dance, right?) 

We sing  (I’m much louder and more into it because I have the cart!): the line: “Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.” ‘Out of nowhere we hear a woman sing: “So, tell me what you want, what you really really want.” We sing the next line, she the next. Then we all start cracking up and meander in different directions. We’re whispering to each other “wtf? Did that really happen?” We scurried around trying to find the 3rd member of our shopping cart dance-pop group. It was like she vanished into thin air.

Yes! It really happened! How cool is that?

"Wannabe"

Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.

So, tell me what you want, what you really really want.

I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.

So, tell me what you want, what you really really want.

I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna really, really, really wanna zigazig, ah.

If you want my future forget my past.

If you wanna get with me better make it fast.

Now don't go wasting my precious time.

Get your act together, we could be just fine.

I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.

So, tell me what you want, what you really really want.

I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna really, really, really wanna zigazig, ah.

If you wanna be my lover

You gotta get with my friends

(gotta get with my friends).

Make it last forever,

Friendship never ends.

If you wanna be my lover

You have got to give.

Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

What do you think about that? Now you know how I feel.

Say you can handle my love. Are you for real

(are you for real)?

I won't be hasty, I'll give you a try.

If you really bug me then I'll say goodbye.

Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.

So, tell me what you want, what you really really want.

I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna—, I wanna really, really, really wanna zigazig, ah.

If you wanna be my lover

You gotta get with my friends

(gotta get with my friends).

Make it last forever,

Friendship never ends.

If you wanna be my lover

You have got to give.

(You got to give.)

Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

So here's a story from A to Z.

You wanna get with me?

You gotta listen carefully.

We got Em in the place

Who likes it in your face.

She got G like MC

Who likes it on an—Easy V

Doesn't come for free.

She's a real lady.

And as for me?

Ha-ha! You'll see.

Slam your body down and wind it all around.

Slam your body down and wind it all around.

If you wanna be my lover

You gotta get with my friends

(gotta get with my friends).

Make it last forever,

Friendship never ends.

If you wanna be my lover

You have got to give.

(You got to give.)

Taking is too easy, but that's the way it is.

If you wanna be my lover

You gotta—, you gotta—, you gotta—, you gotta—,

You gotta slam, slam, slam, slam.

Make it last forever.

Slam your body down and wind it all around.

Slam your body down and wind it all around.

Slam your body down and wind it all around.

Slam your body down and zigazig, ah.

If you wanna be my lover.

Wannabe - Radio Edit lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group, Peermusic Publishing

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/spicegirls/wannabe.html

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Listen when your body tells you something...

I have been having a lot of tests since December. In fact I think my MRI punchcard should be full at the end of the month when I have MRI’s and arthrograms of both shoulders. And no, I haven’t Googled the procedure. My new orthopedic doctor was kind enough to email me a link to watch videos of the procedure! Ugh! No, I haven’t watched them yet, I figure I’ll wait until the day before so I don’t ruminate on it. I’m hoping they partially sedate me because the MRI machines make me claustrophobic, and I’m sure getting a shot of dye into the shoulder joints is not going to be a day at the beach.

My point of this post is listen to your body, if you’re having pain, go to the doctor and have it checked out. I have. If you’ve got a cough or laryngitis for more than 2 weeks, go to the doctor. I did, turns out a medication I had taken for 20 years was the cause of the cough and laryngitis, so he switched me to something different. It did take almost a month to get that medication out of my system. My cough is gone, and so is my Brenda Vacaro voice.

A friend of ours has been dealing with terrible pain from being mauled by a pit bull at a shelter. The dog tried to tear her arm off, the arm she recently had rotator cuff surgery on. So she’s in a hella lot of pain. Her husband had been having abdominal pain and kept stealing her Norco. He stole so much that she would run out halfway through the month. This has gone on at least 2 months that we know of. He went to the doctor this week. He has a large mass in his colon. They were told it would be a couple weeks for biopsy results. It could be cancerous. Had he listened to his body, not self medicated, and seen a doctor at the onset of the pain...well...you know.

I guess you can call this post this month’s PSA.

Update: The today the husband was doubled over in the fetal position. He is now in the hospital on morphine. 

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Ah...memories

I belong to a Facebook group called Old Milwaukee. I grew up in a suburb of Milwaukee so seeing posts and photos is a real trip down memory lane.

Quite a bit of the photo’s are early 60’s and prior. I enjoy the photos and stories nonetheless.

Quite a bit of the posts are of restaurants no longer in business. The names and buildings are familiar, but most I’d never been to. 

The places I did frequent hold fond memories, not just the food, but the friends and family. Burger Chef and Whaler sandwiches on some Fridays during Lent, Sandy’s Burgers with their burgers as big as a plate, Shamrock Inn for some Friday fish fries, Wanda’s Pizza from a bar called Wanda’s that my Dad frequented on Friday nights. These places I went with my family or my Dad brought food home. 

After I got my first job I went out more often, Ling’s Chinese, Shakey’s Pizza with their pizza and Mojo potatoes, Howard Johnson’s, George Webb’s for breakfast or late night burgers and chili, Leon’s Custard, KMart lunch counter, Arthur Treacher’s Fish & Chips for fish and hush puppies or buckets of peel and eat shrimp (small buckets), Jerry’s Subs, Rocky Rococo, Chi Chi’s, Ponderosa Steak House, Sizzler’s.

When I read the posts of other people close to my age, it makes me think, all these places they went out to eat, their shopping trips. I always thought of my family as middle class. My Dad worked at AC Sparkplug, Delco, AC Delco (same place, different names over the years). My Mom was a stay at home Mom. When I see these posts it strikes me, we weren’t middle class. We weren’t poor, we had a home that was built for us in 1962, a decent car, not new, but reliable. We got clothing at the start of the school year and Christmas, that was it. Shoes at the start of the school year. My Mom never bought herself clothing, maybe a dress or 2 that I recall. Remember the polyester stretch pants with the a seam down the middle of each leg?  And the dusters! My Dad had his work clothes and shoes that were replaced when needed, and a suit. I guess we were lower-middle class. I’m not upset about it. My Mom was a great cook and always found a way to put nutritious meals on the table. Not a lot of variety, but good Italian, Irish, and American dishes that I still make to this day.

My family, when my kids were small, went out to eat all the time. Lots of Family restaurants, Chinese, pizza joints. I worked like a dog earning for the family while my now exhb (from another life) stayed at home and trashed the house I was killing myself to pay for. Long hours, I’d come home and no dinner (there was food, he knew how to cook, but....grrrr). I couldn’t come home late, make dinner, spend time with the kids, then get up before the crack of dawn. 

Now my kids are grown. I’ve taught myself to make all the types of cuisine we used to get take out or eat out. Chinese, Thai, Japanese/Sushi, Indian, Cuban, Mexican, Puerto Rican, Greek, Jewish, Italian, Irish. Not because I want to show off, out of necessity, out of the need for variety, and to not feel deprived/depressed that we can’t buy take-out or eat out. We’ve had some long periods of reduced income, several months no income. Name a cuisine, I’m sure I’ve made a dish. 

My daughter got me an Instant Pot for Christmas. Best thing since sliced bread! Throw frozen food, spices and liquid and you’ve got a meal in a little under or over an hour and it’s a dinner that you don’t have to stand over or constantly check. My kids help a lot too.

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Some strangers are da bomb!

My daughter was diagnosed with asthma a little over a year ago. She has multiple inhalers that she uses and a nebulizer machine. She got a brand new one through her insurance. Tiny little thing, we bought a camera case to protect it. Too bad it didn’t save it from a nearly 7 foot fall. A housemate knocked it off the top of a tall free standing cabinet. I don’t need 2 guesses to know who did it. Anyway, regardless of how it happened they say my daughter has to replace it. At a cost of over a hundred dollars, we just don’t have it.

So, I posted on a local ‘Trash Nothing’ site (I guess it’s the new Freecycle.) asking if anyone had a unit in good working order that they no longer needed. It was more than a 2 week wait, but today we picked one up from a very nice older couple who lives not far from us. Nicest couple. Chatted with them for quite awhile. Such a blessing!

It goes to show, there are still nice people in this crazy world. Many thanks to that couple.