I am incredibly angry still, over 3 hours since I left my appointment with Dr Q. (Obviously not his real name, but after what transpired today I think that nickname is appropriate.) Dr Q was to look at my MRI’s, talk about my headaches, and I was hoping for some type of memory test. The PA did a very simplistic, super short memory test. I scored 28/30. I don’t feel that reflects the issues I have been having. Even though the test was a joke, my spouse turned even whiteR at my wrong answers.
Before the test, the PA was going over my current medications, etc. During this I had a very vivid flash of me having a seizure at home. I’ve never had a seizure before and there was absolutely nothing that we were discussing that would even remotely bring the thought of a seizure to my mind.
Dr Q comes in, asks about the headaches, insomnia, other issues such as back pain, shoulder pain, neck pain. Then he gets up and starts pressing on my face and head, then pinching my shoulders and neck and moving my neck around. Of course I am vocalizing that I am in pain, that he is hurting me. Apparently that’s how he gets his kicks. Whatever Dr Q did to my neck is still causing me pain. Then he proceeds to tell me he’s sending me for PT for my neck and for a sleep study.
Dr Q then tells me I need to lose weight for my back pain. Awww Hell no! Tell me he didn’t go THERE! If I had a nickel for every time a doctor told me to lose weight I would have no money worries and would be living the life of the lifestyle’s of the rich and famous. I have back pain because I was in a car accident and had back surgery that didn’t fix my back. Also, I’ve lost 60+ pounds since October 2018. Funny, but my back pain hasn’t improved, nor has my knee pain. Another 50 pounds, 75 pounds isn’t going to improve my back pain, or my knee pain. I was in a car accident. I had back surgery. I also have a very arthritic knee. I have MRI’s and x-rays as my proof.
I am so INCREDIBLY angry about him telling me to lose weight. I am killin it! I am losing weight at an appropriate frequency. When you lose it too quickly it comes right back and then some. Then Dr Q tells me I should ride a bike. He’s a comedian, right? First of all, serious balance issues! Second, I was asked to use a recumbent bike in PT shortly after my car accident. I was on it for mere minutes and pulled something in my butt. I was incapacitated by severe sciatica-butt to ankle pain for at least 2 weeks. PCP ordered me to stop PT and I continued to suffer from sciatica for a couple of months because of that injury.
Dr Q doesn’t think I have Migraines. He thinks the insomnia is causing them. Really? He poo poo’d what my doctor prescribed and then tells me he wants to put me on a particular medication, but he wants me to check with my PCP and another doctor to see if they would ok it. I got home and Googled. Yes, I could have called my pharmacist, but she would have just Googled it too. Guess what one of the possible side effects is?
🎶🎶Jeopardy🎶🎶 theme song.
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One of the side effects is seizures! See paragraph 2! Not going to be taking that medication. Nope. Premonition? I don’t know, but it was very vivid and scared the bjeepers out of me. There was no talk of new medications or side effects or seizures at or before I had the flash of the image of me having a seizure in my living room.
So it is now over 4 hours since I left that appointment. I am still incredibly angry and my neck really hurts. I failed to mention that the PT place he referred me to employs the person who injured me twice at PT. If that woman calls my name at my first appointment I am hobbling out to my car. My spouse can ask if I could work with someone new. If not, PT is not happening. And yes, I hold a grudge when someone insists I do something in PT that I have no business doing. I suffered needlessly. Each time after I was injured I followed up with my PCP and he asked me why I did whatever it was that caused the injury. Each time I told my PCP that the physical therapist instructed me to do it. My PCP was not happy and told me I shouldn’t have done those things and he said that she had no business telling me to do those things.
I am still freaked out by the premonition and seriously need to calm down.
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